Hello! My name is Samantha Fegert, or at least that is what it says on my birth certificate. Now, I go by Samantha Fe (like Santa Fe) because it is flows so nicely and I love the way it fits who I am. I have made a conscious choice to change my name along with a lot of things that didn’t quite fit in my life. My point is, we are all faced with choices throughout our life that shape who we are and what our role is in all aspects of life.
In my past, I have endured a significant amount of pain and struggle. Along with a laundry list of horrible decisions that contributed to the mess of situations I would later have to clean up. Well… later eventually came around. I decided I was ready to face my fears, f*ck ups and flaws by making better choices for myself. I was craving clarity. Even through the fog, somehow I knew that was my first step and ticket to true healing.
During early adulthood, I chose to hide my abilities under the comfortable numbing blanket of alcohol. Not only was this a cozy escape, it was also the easiest, and simultaneously, most detrimental way to shield myself from conscious awareness. I thought I was just having fun, at least that is what I told myself. (Dont get me wrong, it was a LOT of fun.) Eventually the fun caught up to me and it wasn’t fun anymore. I knew there was something more. I also knew I couldn’t run from my gifts anymore, I had to face myself. I found my way to my first meditation class in January of 2012. The class was called meditation on the outside, but really it was“Psychic Kindergarten.”This step changed the entire trajectory of my future. I was about to graduate from SSU with a degree in Psychology. Even through that program, I knew I had way more healing to do before I could help others. Enrolling in a Clairvoyant Program made getting my psychology degree seem like going out to recess in grade school.
You may or may not have heard that psychologists are all wounded, that ‘s why they feel they need to help others. In my experience this is mostly true. What they don’t tell you or don’t know at the University, is that some of these wounds come from other lifetimes and that no amount of talk therapy is going to make the pain go away.
This is the single reason I chose to uncover my gifts rather than hide from them. I knew at that point that if I wanted to make significant difference in this world it would be through better understanding the reason I came into this body in the first place aka, my purpose. My intuition guided me to the Clairvoyant Program and away from grad school. I figured that if I learned more about how to access and understand my gifts, I would be able to use them in all areas of my life. Finally some truth.
Thus began my search for answers, “Where did I come from?” “What is the point of all of this?” “Why is my mother, my mother?” Really I came to the conclusion that the sex, drugs and ‘rock and roll’ life I was leading was not all this life had to offer. My gifts became my salvation, my sovereignty from harm and desire for clarity.
How many times have you tried to meditate hung over? It doesn’t work. My path has been raw. My personal choices to struggle have taught me what it means to be humble. My wounded insecurities have taught me what it takes to be confident. The harm I caused myself by committing to my story of pain taught me what it means to forgive. I had to forgive myself, which meant taking responsibility… full responsibility. The reason I am sharing these vulnerable truths, is to let you know that chances are, I get it. We may have different stories, the trick is… it all boils down to emotion. I understand doubt and insecurity and I absolutely know what it feels like to feel alone and misunderstood. I am here to tell you, You. Are. Not. Alone!
I made the choice to wake up and use my abilities to heal myself first. Now, I can show up for you to share the tools I have learned. The tools that will help you to find what it is you are looking for inside of yourself, no matter how murky the vision may be.
I am a person, a human being, just like you. I’ve made mistakes, I’m not perfect and I am not here to claim that I am. I have fallen, dusted myself off and chosen to learn from every experience. I have dedicated my time and energy into getting to know my angels, as well as my demons. My promise and dedication to you is that I will ALWAYS do my work, personal, spiritual and entrepreneurial. Take note, because this is what your first step to spiritual freedom is. If I take care of me, I will be a better support for you. (Think of a plane crashing, do you put your oxygen mask on first so you may help others? Or do you help others and hope that they help you in return?)
Remember, we are in this together!!